Life is not a fairytale but im okay with it =)

Im seeing rainbows and butterflies wherever I go.
Ahh I get so excited when my phone beeps.
I cant wait to hear your croaky voice when my phone rings.
Now I cant wait for the start of every new new day.
Cause im looking forward to more time with you.

and yes he's my adorable penang boy =)

Im your little piece of heaven

Fuck im hungry!
Bitch im thirsty!

BUT im waiting for the weekend baybeh!

I want nothing but simply simple days with You.
The voice of yours makes me high.
Your smile makes me melt.
Your eyes makes me dream.
Your stare makes me drop!
and when You're infront of me, I get LOST!

ohhh yeah you just know how to do it,dont you? ;)

Thats why your stonie.

*Hoping to see you real soon*

and i sincerely hope you're happy to be seeing me too.

To a very unplanned and unexpected weekend,
loves loves loves =)

All I did was love You.

you may not love
me like I love you
You may not care
for me like I care
for You
But if you ever
need me


I will always be
around for you.!!

my mood just went so blady DOWN!

Im so effin pissed at them.
im 20 and well its no difference here at home.
i did have a good time with the love of my life and anna banana
and vinash.also with saktish and joanna
shots at republic did get me tipsy hehehehehehe :)
I AM OFFICIALLY 20 YA'LL ;D

so fake IM SO NOT HAPPY.atlist nt anymore!ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

it was good.now its wednesday.
ive been waiting for baby to come 2mrw and now i find out MY DAD IS NT WORKING TILL MONDAY.
wtf right!!!!!!!!
i swear i wana run awayyyyyyyyyy
please Godd do me some mercy and rescue me.

im effin bored.im sick of sitting and saying im bored.
im so blady tired of this -_-

i so wana see my baby.
i need to see him
its only fucking march yet!
how the hell is it gonna be june?

OMG i still get scolding for no fucking reason.

I DIDNT BLOG SO LONG cause once i was pouring my heart out and suddenly?
WELL MY DAD OFF'd the stupid wireless.
and i broke down.
i brokE down so hard i cudnt sTop crying.

i hate my life i swear.
im so sad im crying.
and i dun wana worry baby cause he's sleeping.
but i feel so blady alone in this torture prison THAT I PRAY TO GET AWAY!!!!!!!

i miss everything in uni.
i hate this.
ive tried everything.
nothing is working out.
I CANT EVEN GO JOGGING WITHOUT THEM FOLLOWING ME!
them meaning my parents = =

I WANA RUN AWAY PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Im gonna be 20 ;D

i would rather loose my life than loose you :)

In exactly 12 hours i'll be 2o.
i wish i could be with baby when the clock strikes 12.
i loveee you baby
and im glad that when i turn 20,ill be having you in my heart.
i loveeeeeeeeeeeee you effin much.

life's a bitch.la la la
screw that,
and birthdays are just random days.
no biggie right?

i know.im just glad i get to see you tomorrow love
ill always love you.
mwahs mwahs <3

*cant wait for tomorrow.
:)

you will always be in my broken heart

blogging is bullshit.
love is bullshit.
everything is bullshit.
I LOVE YOU FOREVAH&EVAH?
ill always love you?

Those words are crap.
cause LOVE doesnt even exist.
it sucks and its bullshit.

yah I am fine with the fact YOU NEED TIME TO THINK IF YOU WANNA BE WITH ME?
the truth is if love is strong that wont happen.so since it did.
i clearly realise love is a bunch of lies and crap.

i admit i still honestly love you truly with all my heart.
but love is bullshit.
cause all ive got is pain and tears.


im hoping you ppl are having a better shot at love.
cause im definately not.

im single and im definately nt liking it.
WHY?im just letting him go so that he'll be happy.
true love also means i want him to be happy more than anything else in the world.
I wish youu all the happiness in the world
may you find a better girlf whom will love you more than I do.

you may not be mine anymore.
but ull always be in my broken heart.

He taught me how to love, but not how to stop

happy valentines and happy chinese new year ppl.
i knw rather delayed.
im nt busy being happy.
ive had the worst valentines day ever.It was full of tears and bullshit.
and btw ive also deactivated my effin fb.which i feel so much better about.im free from Him and the world.
i dont have to see his crap on his wall and cry cause my life is like crap.
3 months and counting left to GET BACK TO UNI.
but soemhow when i do finally get back things arent going to be the same.
its sad.but its also life.
been listening to Rihanna's ; Hard.

The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.Cause I love him and im sick of all this crap.
I want him back.as my Boyf but not if he's being forced.
its worst when the person You love doesnt love You anymore.

Dear Him,I miss you every second.Im sad you dont feel the same.
I love you.and if these three words dont help,then i guess its over.

Tears are words the heart can't express

No Guy Is Worth Your Tears & When You Find
The One That Is He Won't Make You Cry.

I know that.I do.An old friend of mine used to tell me that all the times when i used to break down.
i admit its real but its so hard when ur going through it.i feel so hurt soemtimes liek noone is getting me at all.

i know what i want.but i think *He doesnt knw it.or mayeb he does but he doenst care.its no fair for my heart.im so hurt that tears fall so much.i cant help it.i wanna be happy too.i wana laugh at jokes.i wana smile for no reason.i do.but i juts cant.

Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream.
i know that.ive been there.we have been there.


The hardest to do is waking up without you
yesh it is.i cnt even sleep knowing when i wake up ur not going to be there.
what hurts the most is knowing i once had it all that i never thought this would ever happen.
i loved you with all my heart.i did.
and i still do.I still hope that ur not letting go.cause the day u will itd be so hard to watch u walk away.
i still remember the first kiss we had.
the first moment i saw you.
the day u gave me a piggy back ride.
and how much of love u gave me.
ill never forget how u held my hand and told me ull never leave me.

but suddenly i feel all this love has vanished.

but i still love u and i still cry at night wishing everything would go back to how it used to be.
to the days where you would say u missed me so much.
I still remember the day you went to get me strepsils cause i was having a bad throat.
i miss those days u were infront of me
i miss you baby.
i do, so so much
my days now just pass with me thinking of those moments we had together.

Wherever you are, you'll always be in my heart