im still not letting go

i noe im supposed to let go..but den y am i still awake and not yet sleepin?cz sumtymes nomater how hard v try v fail over and over again.y?not cz v r weak but cz its life.its supposed to b dat way..dats y im still not over it yet.i tel myself its a chapter of life.its a phase im goin 2grh..but den y do i still tink n hope dat it will sumday b okay?cz im not fine.ive not been fine.im neva fine.im not letting go.im not forgetting.im still tinkin..and tinking..and tinking...dats d whole problem.i cant stop.i cant change.i cant do anytin but tink.am i wrong?i tink n tink but i dun hav answers,i can just hope it will all sumday go away..tho i noe i dun want it too.im still hoping for a lil miracle to come my way.i noe ill neva get my hapie ending.but i still dun wana accept d fact dats its gone and neva coming bak.i cant.i just cant.i cant let go..i just cannot...